Lost-a poem I wrote a LONG time ago

Okay, so I wrote this in my early twenties and looking back at it, I think it sucks horribly but maybe you guys will have a different opinion on it...here goes:

I have lost
Lost someone I onced loved
Someone who was special
So very special to me

WHy did I have to lose
WHy did I have to lose you
Who did I lose you to?

I know what I had to do
What I had to do too you
I did it simply because
I love you

I regret it everyday
Every life I go through
I'm going through without you

I'm sorry I gave you away
Away to people I didn't know
Will never know

I didn't mean to hurt you
Hurt you in a way that you may never forgive me
Forgive me for what I done
Done to you a very long time ago

I'm sorry my child
My pride
My joy
My son